Simplify complication

　　這世界還是一樣複雜，而我們的狀況也似乎到了越想釐清越錯綜複雜的地步。
　　「寂寞」常常是壞了一盤棋的罪魁禍首。
　　當我越來越不清楚自己正在做什麼，越發現情況不如自己想像的簡單而開始有些擔憂與警惕時，"Camplication is always good, which brings out the best and real people."Saad給了我這句話。

　　我不禁開始作了一些誇張的聯想，比如說：未來、婚姻、家庭背景、文化差異…"Slow down! Princess. You go too far. It’s just a start."

　　我其實多想要簡單快樂的享受生活就好，心中卻總有個聲音認為應該為每個人、每件事、甚至每段關係下一個定義，而我們的關係又該定義在什麼地方？
　　快樂的背後，都必須付出等量的代價，而假設兩個人只是快樂的擁有彼此、快樂的陪伴，我們到頭來需付出的代價又是什麼？

　　單純的喜歡，或是因為寂寞？在我簡單的腦袋中，要能分辨其中的差異，的確有些困難，我想這複雜的情況將持續下去。我還是相當不公平的要求了太多，允許自己因為寂寞而接受別人的友好，卻不斷質疑對方的動機不單純，甚至用了可怕的committed loyalty試圖想要試探對方的底線 。

　　"I’m not ready for the committed long-term relationship…But how do you define the serious relations? Do you really want serious relations? "
　　嗯，的確，現在的我，還不想太早想到這件事。

　　"When you are around a person you can really open up and talk to and do whatever you want...It’s good, isn’t it?"
　　"You like me and I like you…So perfect! Then, that‘s what we have now."

A TWIX a day keep bad mood away

　　The way of "getting used to sth or sb" is the most dreadful thing for me, which means accepting it probably not from the true will, but under some "can't help but" situations, e.g., under company’s principle, have to arrive at office before 9:30, can’t find da “right guy”, so living single life for 4 more yrs, study in UK, so getting used to the grey spiritless raining weather… Sounds like “no choice”, however, it sometimes can be good thing instructed by God.

　　A guy from my course keeps giving me a bar of TWIX when he comes over to my place or whenever I am depressed. I’m, frankly speaking, not that into chocolate bar, but I can’t deny that I’m getting used to the offer and quite happy to get this little stuff from him.

　　With twinkling golden pack, this small bar leads me to a happy mood.